God said, “Don’t even ask!”

God said, “Don’t even ask!”

I had just come from the hearing results of my biopsies, 13 taken, all malignant, prostate cancer. At his computer the urologist showed my wife and I the prognosis. At the most, WITH treatment, (Lupron, external beam radiation-45 times, chemotherapy), 3 years left to live.

I began to ask God the big question, “Am I going to heaven?” In fact all I got out in my mind was, “Am I going..” Resounding in my spirit was the interruption, “Don’t even ask that! YOU ARE MINE!” The force it was delivered in reminded me of a powerful hug, not letting go until I fathomed the level of affection it was given in and I accepted the truth of it.

Tears and more tears, not that I got the diagnosis, but at yet another astounding revelation of how intense the love of God is! Don’t doubt His love! In the following weeks He let me feel the atmosphere of heaven, I viewed glimpses of the vast ocean of His glory and peace and the absolute, undeserved and unreserved love He has. I was more than ready to go, I really desired to go. But….more was left to do.

That was in 2009. I should have been dead in 2012. I recently had a CAT and bone scan. No cancer. I am His, to live is Christ and to die is gain…but He decides the time of my graduation….and yours too.

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